Bitch, Please

What has happened to me since I came to Middlebury? I've become this...this...this player?! Do I mess with hearts now??? This is so not like me. I now officially have a Guy #3 @_@ I know how likely it is for him to fall in too deeply, but I persuaded him to try this thing between us anyway. Does that make me a bitch? The bitch? I'm not sure, and I don't think I want any of you out there to answer that. Not yet.

I've beaten this topic to death already with several unfortunate persons, but I'm still going on and on. I need to shut up.

NO.

I need the person I REALLY TRULY want to want me back. Then I will finally shut up.

Stupid stupid stupid.