That was such a confusing 90 minute phone call. His voice gets incredibly thick when he cries.

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I slept with 3 different (new) people in a 7-week period.

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These guys are just tiding me over for Something Else. I wish Asher was that Something Else; at least there wouldn't be any more guessing or speculation. But he's not. No matter how hard I try to bend him into becoming This Guy I could have a Future with, he isn't that. Won't ever be that. The part of me that knows better always stops the part of me that doesn't, thank god. But also goddammit.

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I'm all shook up.