Oops I Did It Again

So this summer I made a pledge not to engage in any hanky-panky activity for the fall semester of sophomore year in Middlebury College.

This Saturday night I met this guy from University of Vermont at 11:30pm and played a bit of tonsil hockey with him by around 3:00am I was a tease, of course because I always have second doubts whenever I bring someone back to my room, and then I wind up not doing anything seriously sexy. So they leave early. Which happened this time too.

I need to buy another jar so I can put my self-respect in there.

I think I should bitchslap myself because I'm apparently still under the impression that I can be that casual hook-up weekend girl when I haven't even lost my virginity yet. Until that time comes, I'm going to be a wanna-be (and a very bad one at that. complete poseur.) I suppose I'm just lonely, which kinda sucks because I don't have enough time in my daily schedule to be in a relationship.

Guess I'm stuck.