Things I've Been Told

"you’re hard to read"

"it’s difficult to gauge your emotional reactions"

"I can’t tell if you’re mad or just annoyed or…?"

"what does that face mean"

"I don’t know what you’re thinking"

"you keep yourself really distant"

"please tell me what’s on your mind"

Really? I never thought of myself as hard to read—my face gives away so much, I can never hide if I’m upset or happy or excited or w/e over something, but I’m told these things often (and usually by my various paramours or people-trying-to-be-friends-with-me).

But I mean, yeah. I push you away if I feel like you’re getting too close. My walls don’t give unless I think your walls have come down enough too. This doesn’t make me an impossible person to know. It simply means that getting to know me isn’t a light investment. I don’t do superficial whatever-ships with people. I’m a no-nonsense person; show me you’re worth my time and energy.

Does this make me any less worth getting to know?